I want to do it, even if it hurts

I had loved “him” unrequitedly for a very long time. However, to him, Hayeon wasn’t a woman. If you put it nicely, she was a junior from the same club. And if you went a little further, she was a girl from the same workplace. That was it. But he’s getting married? “I’m going to go on a blind date and get married as quickly as possible.” Hayeon could not contain the emotions she had held on to for a long time when he said he would do a contract marriage with a woman he didn’t know. “If you must do it… do it with me, that marriage.” With her clumsy seduction, she held on to the man’s strong back and pressed her hot lips onto his. It was a provocation from a cheeky junior. Will sunbae* be angry? Or perhaps he will laugh and call me crazy. But the words that came out of his mouth were unexpected. “If you’re going to do it, do it properly.” *Sunbae: A term used to address your senior, mostly at school/work